Email from someone :)

Email from someone  :)

Yana, No one has the right to tell u who u r n control ur life, cause it's urs. ur life is meant to b lives by no one else but yourself. We sometimes let people get d bes of us, destroy us n change our opinions on what we believe is true. BUt! Only u know what is right for yourself, u have the power, u make the choices and learn. Each experience we go through in life is a lesson to be learned la yana. We all make mistakes right but still why is it so hard for some to understand it right? But remember , no one should be judged by the mistakes we have made. Its past news. Remember that u said to me ,Everything happens for a reason, and without the hard times, how would we ever realize our true strength? It's only through a time of suffering when we realize how strong we truly are inside, when we realize how much we can actually put up with n deal with before we eventually break. Yana ........................................................

Daer bff, 

Thank you for ur email..

Alhamdulillah :)

The next word is comes out from my mouth is 

"Alhamdulillah" 

because Allah gift and bless always be with me all the times 

because i know when we love Allah no matter what that's why

 I still can face this world even without any strength to face them, 

but Allah will give me that strength to do it.

Jealousy??

Jealousy?? Hurmm.. What is the cure for jealousy? The familiar ugly feeling, unpleasant reaction when someone gets and be with what you always wanted. You know it’s wrong to feel that way, but how can you control what you feel?

You can control your actions. You can control your behavior. You can control your words. To some extent you can control your thoughts. But how can you control your feelings?

I don’t express my jealousy in anyway. I don’t react or take decisions or make plans based on jealousy. So in a way I have conquered jealousy. But I feel my victory is incomplete. I don’t even want the feeling of jealousy to exist in my heart. I don’t ever want to feel jealous.

Is it even humanly possible to conquer jealousy completely?

happy rainy day :)

It was a beautiful rainy day, a cozy day that reminds me of a distant past. It makes me stay longer in bed dreaming. It makes me write poetry and read a book by fire. All I wanted to do was sip tea and look at the rain forever. It was cool. I felt I was looking at the world through sun glasses even though I was wearing none. Rain was refreshing. 

A MUSLIM MAN'S LOVE LETTER

If you love me, don’t confess your love to me through haraam (forbidden) ways,

This won’t please me and will instead drive me away!

Love games don’t attract me.

If you love me, have sabar (patience) and I will knock on your door when the time is right.

Don’t give me privileges which I don’t deserve.

Keep me away from you, and I will approach you.

If you approach me, I will stay away from you.

Don’t love me, for I want you ignorant in love.

I want to teach you love when the right time comes and when you will be mine,

Only when we are joined together under our Creator’s satisfaction

Don’t tell me what you feel, don’t give me from your time, don’t push me to lose you.

I am a man who does not want to see the one he loves committing sins or to live a forbidden love behind her family’s back.

I don’t want her to feel guilty and don’t want her heart to suffer.

Put me under limits that I won’t cross, kill me inside you so I won’t grow to kill you inside me.

Preserve what is beautiful inside you.

I want you innocent, chaste, pure.

I want you my love, but with Allah’s blessings and not shaytan’s whisperings.

And then, Only then, I will face everything and will be ready to go through difficulties to get you,

Don’t be easy because then, I may not value you.

Don’t love me now, so I won’t hate you!

My heart wants you and doesn’t want to lose you.

I don’t want you to be just a passing fancy for me,

I want you a wife, a lover, the mother of my children, I want you to be the one I will spend my whole life with.

How could I be a faithful man to you when I try to break your chastity?

How would I be faithful to you if I push you to betray your family?

How could I trust a love which grew under Allah’s wrath ?

To make you mine through niqah (marriage) is Islam’s way,

Till then wait patiently and do not dismay.

To love you means to protect you,

To Love you is to bring you closer to Allah and His deen (religion)

To preserve you not to kill what is beautiful inside you.

-Your Husband-to-be (Insha’Allah!)

* dear my husband to be, i wish i could receive your love letter for me just like dis.. oowhh.. touching nye :( 

(:

Finally , Yesterday, I've made decision and I know it could be the worst decision I made, but I have to and I believe with help from Allah I will survive and through this situation at all for good. InsyaAllah (:

stay strong

I can dream anything, but it is perseverance and desire that attains goals.

I am willing to go the distance emotionally, spiritually and physically to become not good, but great.

It is easy to wake up and go through the motions of the day unenthusiastic .

It is difficult to wake up and decide today i will be different because everything is different now

Different from yesterday and maybe will be better for tomorrow

I will push the limits of my mind and my body to achieve strength that i never had before

I will try to believe to my self to make change and accept the changes in my life

I will not succumb to others doubts or to my own

I will make my daily goals and not only to reach them but i will exceed them

I will not be weak for all this things

I will embrace challenge, welcome obstacles.

I will be all i have dreamed.

I will stay strong!! InsyaAllah :)

BE PRETTY PLS :)

I know i won't be able to handle it

I know I won't be able to confront it..

I might be impulsive.. but heck..

what if my presumption is right???

I hope my prediction isn't right for this time

or if I'm right juts don't let me find out that I'm right..

just don't . Be pretty please

I just don't know why these suddenly come to my mind

sometime i really don't understand myself. What am i thinking actually??

Ya Allah , pls help me to be strong. InsyaAllah .. 

there'll be scar ♥

I sensed something went wrong but i couldn't figure out what it is.

and i also predicted something will happen and i don't want it to be happen

I don't know where wills this lead to,

but i just don't want to screwed up everything and the same thing happen again.

" ALHAMDULILLAH " :)

I LIKE.......

I like shopping, because I love to see pretty things.

I like traveling, because I love the breath-taking scenarist.

I like outdoor games, because I love the fresh cooling air that brushes against my skin.

I like children, because I love to watch them being innocent and playful.

I like food, because I love the satisfaction that brings me smile.

I like so many things!!

BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING

I LIKE YOU!! :)

sometimes..

Hurmm.. Too many things to thing I guess. Sometimes it feels like a stick is squeezed between my collarbones, firm but gently, and a dull ache spreads all over my upper chest and throat. It can happen at any time and place, often when I am alone, though it occurs around other people as well. It feels like I am crackling from the inside, my breathing gets weaker, all of my muscles stiffens, my stomach turns and a chronic weariness rolls along. All I want to do is to crawl under my bed cover and pretend that nothing happen ..

Sometimes is now, thank god, just sometimes.

so damn emotional !

I NEED TO STOP BEING

SO DAMN EMOTIONAL

ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!

LYANA! PLS STOP!

LYANA!!! pls Stop, stop, STOP!!! Stop act like a child. Its 2012! Pls make some resolution! Good judgments comes from experiences, experiences comes from bad judgments. Yes, we are human, we do mistakes. We learn and improve. I been doing wrong decisions up until now, and because of it, I need to rectify myself. No longer any use to blame the past “I” for the “I” now. I need to grow up and be mature. I need to stop acting like a child. Make decisions, take actions. Change the “no” to “yes”. Pls Stop complaining lyana!. If no actions to be taken, then shut up and just accept it, live with it.

2012 :)

I hope this is not too late for me to wish u all HAPPY NEW YEAR , 2012 :)

my last post was a month ago..

i guess this is the first time i abandoned my blog for such a long period

all because of those unexpected thing happen in my life

AHH..., you would not expect to knowing how time flies..

It’s already 2012 ..

and 2012 surprise me a lot..

n i don’t know what should i feel

Happy??sad?? worried .. hurmm

anyway.. thank you for everything dear..

i hope i can leave all the bad memories in 2011

and build the good memories in 2012

plus I hope I  can remember all the good memories in 2011

and avoid the bad memories in 2012

bring some resolution in 2012.

so 2012, pls be good to me :)