Tears are starting to drop, but I am still holding my tears. I know, one day I will no longer be able to hold my tears. Since that day, it’s no longer the same. Everything changed. 

for you

For someone,

I'd smile when you are happy,

I will Comfort you when you are sad,

I will try to be the perfect girl and calm you when you are mad.

I will help and hold your hand to make you strong

And say you are right when I know that you are wrong.

"We come to love 

not by finding 

a perfect person 

but by learning

 to see an imperfect 

person perfectly."

harimau malaya mengaauuummmm

21/11/2011

congrats HARIMAU MALAYA =)

sakit n pedih =( kucing mengaauuummm

wawawwawa .. jht2.. kucing kn tuan.. how come?? huhu.. tah hape tah hangin kucing tuh tetibe nk cakat n gigit org.. ank rimau kepe.. tau la hariamu malaya baru mengaaauuumm smalam.. x yah la die pun nk gtu .. hish.. saket la! berdarah2 tau..=( nasib la kucing .. kalo tak dah lame kene toink kepala tau! sabau je la..

suddenly feel like i want to cry.. hurmmm ..

Ost Ombak Rindu Dan Lirik nyanyian Hafiz Af dan Adira

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia

Untuk terima ku seadanya

Kerna ku tak sanggup

Kerna ku tak mampu

Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku

Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku

Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka

Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku

Malam kau bawalah rinduku

Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku

Agar dia tidak kesepian

Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hujan bawa air mata ku

Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku

Agar dia tahu ku terseksa

Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hanya mampu terserah

Moga cahaya di penanti

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia

Untuk terima ku seadanya

Kerna ku tak sanggup

Kerna ku tak mampu

Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

sad

changed mood

* sad *

My mood for blogging has finally arrived.. ! =)

makeup =)

jadik pengapit for my cousin.. =) .. tp akibatnye .. esk nye abes muke berjerawat abes sbb x thn ngn makeup =( ..

my cousin's wedding [bora ombak,ampang - 13/11/11 ]

You don't marry someone you can live with - you marry the person who you cannot live without

Congratulations on your wedding! Let all your dreams come true and every minute be a feast!

my cousin's wedding .. 11/11/11

[W]hen you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

I wish you that quarrel, misunderstanding and misfortune will never ever touch you. Have a long and happy life together!

i love you

I don't want to feel afraid anymore.

I want to be happy for what I’m going to do
I want to tell you how much I love you.

In a way it doesn't seem too big to handle,

in a way it doesn't seem too small to be cast aside,

in a way it doesn't seem like a total joke, in a way it doesn't seem like it's just another bundle of words together.

But I don't know how to.

How to tell you I love you in the way I would want it to come out.

I want to see the anticipation from your face before I can even say these words out.

I want to see the smile slowly emerging out from that little face of yours.

I want to feel the butterflies in your heart.

I want to know you feel the same way too.

Sometimes I feel "I love you" is too short a phrase for all that to be evident.

And it’s too short to tell you how much I love you.

Three replies

Allah always has three replies to our prayers.
Yes, or yes but not now
Or I have a better plan for you.
Maybe, just maybe that one is not the one for you
Or maybe if that one is, its not the time yet
Allah knows best


Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

selamat hari raya aidiladha ..

6/11/2011

to all Muslim people

wishing you 

" SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA.. "

semoga lebey diberkati dan dirahmati

thanx  kat adik sye 

yg baek hati

sbb belikan lemang..

tringin dr raya arituh lg.. =)

hurt =(

Have you ever felt as though your heart have just been ripped apart?
i have
it doesn't feel good
not at all

It’s hurt..!

Over and over I tried to be strong

Over and over I smile but inside I’m dying

Over and over I tried to accept it

Over and over I act like nothing happened

Waiting is painful!
the worst is, when that happened you can't even cry
too numb
eyes too dry
it's as though even if we shout with all our might no one will hear us
so do we expect people to listen?
It’s as though no matter what happens
even if people pass us by
they will not notice
they will not even spare a second glance at you

They did not understand you
too cruel for tears
so please save me from tears

I’m tired to get sad

I’m sick of crying

I’m sick of hoping

I’m sick of waiting

sleepy =(

Sleepy! =( 

I noticed I’m feeling more and 

more sleepy every day. 

And also there are some days

 when I would feel depressed and irritable, 

while there are also days where 

I would feel perfectly okay. 

Sometimes, I would feel bloated or fat, 

and some days I would feel my body aching. 

Blame it on hormones I guess. hhuurrmm.. 

distance

i want you to know that, Just because we don’t talk doesn’t mean I don’t think about you. but I’m just trying to distance myself because I know I can’t have you.

and it will hurt me a lot

think and think

There are 'something' in my mind..

and in my heart...

that I do not know what it is

and i want to let it out..

but i just did not know what is 'something' really is..

have you ever felt it?

-i keep thinking about-

Friendship

love

ambition

dream

future

farewell

separation

money

married

weight

and i don't know why did i keep thinking about it..

flowers :)

Do you guys like flowers?

How many of you guys ever stop to smell the flowers? 

I went to this really beautiful flower shop today with my sis, 

and I was amazed with all the colorful flowers.

its very nice..

It was just so pleasing to the eyes, 

and when we came nearer,

our nostrils were filled with the most aromatic smell.

It’s pure happiness. 

I will appreciate if someone 

gift me a flower even its is the simple one J

jealous !

I may look happy all the time to most people .

But no one actually knows how I really feel in the inside .

Actually sometime I get jealous with my little bro

Because everybody proud of him

But I think no one proud of me.. =(

and that will make me down n feel give up 

I started to write blog because every time when I'm sad or happy,

it's either I can't find anyone to talk about it or nothing comes out of my lips .

I don't know how to describe how I feel so I decided to write them out in words . 

Somehow it makes me feel better in the inside . 

Whenever anything happens , 

I always tell myself everything will be okay in the end . 

Cause everything happens for a reason . 

I believe everyone has to place to go or things to do when they are sad and down to make them feel better . 

Since I can't go anywhere for now , 

this blog is the only way for me to ease my pain . 

The only thing in my life that listens to whatever I want to say .
At least for now .

to my self :   

it's not gonna be easy to live

 in the earth as a human being..

yes, it's really hard to live, 

but...

don't ever give up..

because.....

the world is actually a very 

beautiful place to live in..

you just don't know about it yet... ;)

just be strong

allah s.w.t will always with  you!

11111

its 1/11/11

11.11 pm ..

dedicate to someone :)

Dedicate to: someone :)

if after this we will not be together, it will be hurt.. a lot.. but I will never forget you. i will not regret knowing you and loving you because you are the one of the best things that's ever happened to me. I will look back and I’ll always be thankful that you came into my world. I feel so BLESSED that I was given the chance to love you. You came and brought so much meaning into my life… you brought love and care, and so many wonderful things and for that I will forever be grateful. You came and taught me how to love and you showed me what it’s like to be loved in return.

I met and loved someone like you. You changed my life in the most beautiful way… you gave me one of the happiest, most unforgettable experiences a girl could ever have. I will NEVER be sorry that I fell in love with you. Being sorry for what happened between us would be like denying what I felt about you. And I can’t do that. You brought so much happiness into my life.

I know I’m not perfect, and I’ve made my own share of mistakes. I’ve done things I’m not very proud of… and for that, I’m sorry. But if there’s one thing that I’m proud of, it’s the fact that I loved you unconditionally.

Thank you for everything. For all the love we shared and all the priceless moments. and hope that you will love me as what i am with all your heart 

Lot of love,

yana

1/11/11

thank you

u make me happy =)

FIRST LOVE

Once in a while

You're in my mind

I think about the days that we had

And I dream if this would all come back to me

If only you knew every moment in time

Loving goes on in my heart, just like your memories

How I long here to be with your once more

You'll always gonna be the one

And you should know how I wish I could have never let

you go

Come into my life again, oh don't say no

You'll always gonna be the one

In my heart, so true, I believe I can never find

Somebody like you, my first love

Once in a while

You're in my dreams

I can feel the warmth of your embrace

And I pray that one day you'll come back to me

If only you knew every moment in time

Loving goes on in my heart, just like your memories

How I long here to be with your once more

You'll always be inside my heart

And you should know how I wish I could have never let

you go

Come into my life again, oh don't say no

Now and forever you're still the one

In my heart, so true, I believe I can never find

Somebody like you, my first love

You'll always gonna be the one

And you should know how I wish I could have never let

you go

Come into my life again, oh don't say no

You'll always gonna be the one

So true, I believe I can never find...

Now and forever, you are...