HAPPY EARTH HOUR! :)

31^ST MARCH 2012

8.30PM - 9.30PM

glad you happy now :)

i just read your blog just now, 

because that is the only way that i can know about you.

 saw that you happy with your new life now.. 

and i'm happy for you. 

but still i'm worried about you. 

i know you are independent girl . 

take care of yourself. 

and i will keep doa for you to have a better life 

where you are healthy and happy always because you deserve it. believe me. InsyaAllah :)

new room :)

Bismillahirahmanirahim.. 

hye everyone..

i'm happy now..

just move to najihah's room..

much better actually because can do anything together with her and ainun..

much much much better! 

and hope everything will be okay after this! InsyaAllah..

tq to them for accept me to be in this room

later we go out together okay?? 

bowling and chang ka la ok! :)

my wish

My wish...

“you can be my imam for my prayers. 

Be my qari and read the Quran for me. 

Be the one who leads me to Allah S.W.T. “

Insha’Allah :)

Sometime words aren’t enough to express my feelings

My lips may not speak but my eyes shows all the meanings?

Don’t you see that?

Sometime all I need is silent tears to shed

When I have heard enough and there is nothing left to be said

Sometime all I need is a true friend

Who lift and cheer me up and be with me till the end

Sometime all I need is support when I’m down

Without I’m telling that I’m down.

Sometime i run after dreams that will never be true

When I realize that, my heart turns blue

Sometime I give up very soon

Carried away by the fake promises of the silver moon

Sometime I’m left with unanswered questions

Sometimes I learn from the mistakes of my past

And try to correct and rectify them fast

Sometimes words aren’t to express my feelings

My lips may not speak but my eyes shows all the meaning.

i love you!

Of course I know I haven’t been posting like I used to. 

But it is all for the good trust me. 

I'd like to spend more time here and write as much as i can because there is so much to scribble. 

BUTTTTTTTTTTT... a big But...

 I want to say less and enjoy more - selfish is it? :)

Just kidding .. :D

I LOVE MY BLOG!

and i will write my blog if i have extra time..

quite busy on my training and work lately,

that's why i haven't been posting like before.

so now, i'm back! 

love u blog! muah! xoxo ;)

HAPPY BELATED 

BIRTHDAY 

TO 

ME :)

i wish

I had the courage to say what was really on my mind..

I wish I could care less about what other people feel or think..

I wish I could go all out without worrying about hurting other people's feelings..

I wish I could turn back bad time and slap myself for not being able to bring out creativity and fun to my life..

But it just a wish.. the reality is I can’t do that

 because this is my self

Always can’t say anything in my mind

Always like to care about other people feel or think

Worrying if I hurt other people’s feelings

Just stay alone and keep blame myself

RELATIONSHIP..

It's Tuesday night and the flu is slowly making its way out of my body.. The flu. I didn't get a flu shot because I personally don't feel it'll help me. 

The topic I wanted to touch base on is relationships.  When I say relationships I'm not referring to the typical love interest.. a spouse or significant other. I mean our family, friends, those we work with all day long (co-workers or simplify it), neighbors and others

My definition of family would have to be those in your life that no matter what happens will always have an infinite amount of love to give to you, never walk away emotionally, share memories that no other relationships could possibly ever come close to replacing. They will always be there. Sometimes you'll build such an amazing bond with your family that it seems too good to be true to be called family. Family you're born into in a way, related by blood as so many say. Now taking a step back you may be picturing a family with no faults. It rains and sometimes it pours, but please.. Please keep in mind the sun always comes out! There are always situations that families face together or apart. They may not be around or there are always those unresolved issues that break up a happy home; however, they are the same ones that surprise you when life has carried you to the edge. In a way, to me, they're you're forever friends and will always know you in a way other relationship won't. "To me, family means putting your arms around each other and being there."Family is very important to many people. Whether it’s your parents, siblings, cousins or any relative in the family, these are the people who you trust and can depend on. When there’s family problems in the house, understand that it’s normal and that many things in the house can be resolved. Even if you get mad at someone who’s in the family, you’ll eventually forgive them through time.

Friends! This one is huge and I need to keep it as short, sweet and simple as possible. Friends branches to so many other sub categories. You have acquaintances, those you confide in, the ones that just want to have a good time. All in all they're friends. At one point in your life they may have been yours everything. The one that kept you together when you felt there was no one else to hold you up. I feel our emotions are the same with friends as they are with our family relationships but our actions seem to change with each person we love. I've noticed in life observing people as I LOVE to gives hugs to everyone.. It’s easier for people to hug friends than family. I don't feel you love either less or more, it's the approach. It's what each person brings out of you. My suggestion HUG EVERYONE! Start now, start tomorrow! "A friend is someone who helps you up when you're down, and if they can't, they lay down beside you and listen."A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same. A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be.

It's hard to get up and go to work every day, I think everyone will agree. Before this I would say that it’s hard to get up and go to class but now different. Yes! Now I still have to go to class but it’s not for test but for getting a job and it’s about work! What makes it worthwhile, the money? Of course! Co-workers you build relationships with. Me personally, I feel I'm at work more than I am home now. During the week that probably is true if you're counting the hours sleeping. The people I work with make it close to easy waking up and dragging me to my spirit every day. We support one another, since we're all in it together. It's so important to build relationships at work; it's not good to be in a negative environment since work is the wood that keeps the fireplace burning, right? "Never lose site of the fact that the most important yardstick of your success will be how you treat other people - your family, friends and coworkers, and even strangers you meet along the way."

I love everyone so much and the various relationships we've all built throughout the years. I try so hard to express that to everyone and hope you all know how important you are. =)

Goodnight everyone, love you all!!

WHITNEY HOUSTON 1963-2012

better :)

Alhamdulillah ,

This morning I woke up feeling sooooooooo GOOD..

I embraced the feeling and BLESSED

 I did that stress-free yawn and stretch to the background music of a crackling back and popping toes

Hrmmmmmmm,

I felt like I’d reached towards the sky and turned on the sunlight and walked the moon home

My smile gleamed so BRIGHTLY

PEACE whispered in my ear and told my MIND, BODY and SOUL that

GOOD DAY was on his way over to spend some quality time with me

I was overjoyed and the timing was perfect

Being that WORRY finally took his ass home yesterday

I told his stressful self not to call on me but wait to be called

I arose and bathed in the wellspring of LIFE

And dried my body with the clouds

New dress, new purse and shoes to adorn my form

No make-up and natural locks coupled with freshly manicured fingers and toes to enhance external beauty

I read the "good book" to nourish my inner

All mirrors bowed at my presence for having the distinct honour of displaying my reflection

For today, BEAUTY is my name

And I lovingly accept

Now, I feel even better!

Confidence exudes in my walk

GOOD DAY has officially arrived and entered my realm

using the key I gave him long ago

When he visits I feel so blessed

Blessed with favour,

The experience doesn't go unnoticed

I welcomed him in along with our friends, HAPPINESS and LOVE

They said they just had to see me

I embraced them

GOOD DAY gave me a hug that made me feel peaceful, yet powerful

I was so happy to see him because his last visit was many moons ago

I’d been hanging out with INSECURITY, DEPRESSION, STRESS and NEGATIVITY

They aren't his type of crowd

I love his presence in my life because he always brings with him good company

Like FOUND MONEY, NO GUN SHOTS and PROGRESS

TEMPTATION called while we were enjoying each other trying to make me choose

But WISDOM sent a text message shortly after suggesting that I let it go unanswered

It was a bit challenging but I did it thanks to my girl SELF-ESTEEM

I just hope he doesn't show up at my front door...

feel better :) 

..all about you..

She thinks about you nonstop and you’re all she talks about. When she talks to you she always has that goofy smile and she truly looks happy. With one hug, you make her melt and you always leave her with butterflies. But at the same time, when she’s upset it’s usually because of you, but she refuse to see any bad in you.  And no matter how many people try and tell her different, she believes you’re perfect for her and worth every second of the wait. But she’s too scared to tell you any of this because she doesn't want to screw anything up and doesn't want to end up hurt. I realize that and know that , We both are having the same situation sometime because we both love the same guy. 

TQ MISS LINDA :)

WOW .. I HAVE LEARN A LOT OF NEW THINGS TODAY.. 

" NO MORE LIMITING BELIEF! "

TQ MISS LINDA :) 

should i???

Arghh .. its hurt.. Should i give up or should i stay strong?  Sometimes, my heart knows things that my mind can’t explain.! I don't what should i do. Maybe i should give up! But sometime when i look in the mirror, i see a girl who's been through so much and yet , still finds a way to smile  at the past. She still loves with all her heart, or what's left of it and when you see her walking in the hallway, i can guarantee you she'll have her head up high. for all those people who try to break her, you never will. I need you in my life because knowing you'll ne there tomorrow gives me strength to make it through today. The way i felt about you couldn't be compared to anything else. No words could have explained. No emotion ever felt like enough and i hope you know that. I trust you. I will wait for you because i believe that if you truly love me, you will never stop , no matter what and as much as you deny the love you feel for me, if you ever loved me, you always will. I love you and probably always will.And i'm still here waiting to catch you if you fall.