.. keep thinking ..

i keep ever wonder how small or tiny i'm in the whole world? reducing the scale to only a town, i'm the one who still only a tiny part out of the whole community. no one on this earth too, are similar to each other, not even twins, not even clones. everybody are special, but i did not ever realize how special i'm?

in my mind i keep thinking about he and she..even i'm not really knoe them.. never been hang out with them.. never talk with them together but for me he is so talented. she is so hardworking. he is so adventurous. she is charismatic. he is so brave.and she is so smart.he is so   cute and she is so sweet. there is only always he or she, but where is the I?? i'm keep admire others especially them. now i'm only know how to feel inferior, not loving who i am today or tomorrow. have i not realize that i have good qualities too? have i not realized that i am special too in some way?? i never did, because i refuse to see the good in me. bcoz i keep thinking that she's the one who perfect to him

between willing and reluctant, i find myself is moving forward reluctantly now. i wanna escape the reality. tears are ready to drop any moment. but this is the path i chosen. realizing how dumb or stupid i am doing something i am not happy with. walking through this path right now, i hope i have the strength to walk till the end.

it's all the matter of CHOICE.